I’ve noticed I say that I’m “new” to blogging; when in truth, I’ve been attempting to maintin this site for about two months. It’s not that I’m new, it’s that I don’t post as frequently as I should.
I like to make excuses: I didn’t run today because I still have a blister on my toe. I’ll do that assignment tomorrow because I have three days until it’s due. I’ll blog over the weekend when I have more time. Let’s just order out, we don’t have the ingredients to make that.
Making these excuses, is making it hard for me to be the person I truly want to be. Who I want to be:
-A runner
-A 4.0 student
-A blogger whom people love reading
-A good friend
-A good girlfriend
-An even better daughter and sister
-Confident
-Energized and Excited
-Challenged and Challenging
The orginal reason I started this blog is because I’m lonely.
I had been a fairly avid blog reader for about a year, year and a half , when realized you girls (and guys) had such amazing and strong and loving relationships with one another. So I started asking myself questions: how would I start a blog that’s heartfelt and fun, let alone how would I start relationships with other writers? Would they like me back? Was I boring or ignorant or not up to par? What do I write about? How do I maintain? What was my voice?
Up until now, I was timid in my posts; keeping them short and sweet and what I hoped to be funny. I kept comments to other posters at a minimum and even then I was over analyzing what I said. What I was looking for were comments and high stats on my own posts. After a conversation with Miss Britt, I’ve decided that I don’t need to be the most popular or the funniest blogger. I don’t need to have the best pictures or prettiest layouts. What I need are friends. Those that I can confide into, look to for support, recieve an encouraging card in the mail from, someone whom I can call and cry to.
And I want to be that kind of friend back.
This first part of the year has not been easy going; and I don’t want to post like it has been. I’m not meeting goals I’ve set for myself, I’m still in Winter-Vacation-Mode: I’ve run once since going back to school, I’ve already missed one of my lectures this week, I haven’t completed my assignments in a timely manner. I feel disconnected and my first thought was to go to my friends. But what friends?
Moving from Central Illinois to Chicago has proved to be a rather difficult situation for me. I had a fairly tight knit group of friends back home; but once upon moving, no matter what I said about keeping in touch, I started to know less and less about them. And, well, that makes me sad. I know what you’re thinking, “You’re at University! Make friends there. Join a fucking club. Get your shit together.” And I want to, I really do. Unfortunately, I get a little anxious. It’s like with this blog; I get worried about appearences and what others will think or say.
And this, this blog, this post, is my first 2010 Challenge: To step outside of certain comfort zones.
That is the long winded explaination of why I started this blog. And here is the short: I want those who are interested involved in my life; I want you to know about the good and the ugly. I certainly don’t have a perfect life, and hope you wouldn’t expect me to. Sometimes I’ll need so encouragement, some support, a funny joke, even a small kick in the ass. And I would love to be able to do the same for you. So please, take the time to introduce yourself: where do you live, what do you blog about? Do you read? Play music? Are you vegetarian? Crafy? A domestic goddess?
I want to know it all.
See.. ugh. Can I just paste this on MY blog?!!?
What on earth are you talking about?! YOU are a brilliant writer, love! <3 x 100 billion!
And you said University and not college. Squee. Its like you’re Canadian.
PFFFFT! I just like the way it sounds better! Plus, I always used to say, “Oh, I go so such and such Community College.” And now I get to say, “Oh, I got to the Univerisity of Illinois at Chicago!”
Brittney sent me over here after telling me we’re both stuffed in her pockets so I thought I’d say hello.
It look a while to just let it all out on my blog so all I can say is stick with it and who you are. The people that don’t like it do not matter.
About me: I read and I am a vegetarian. Sometimes crafty, sometimes just a plain mess. I love my animals like I’d assume I would love my children. And I like way too many things.
HAHAHA! Britt is the best! So glad you came to visit me! Can’t wait to get to know you more.
WONDERFUL post. Stepping outside of your comfort zone is hard, but entirely worth it – I have quite a bit of experience when it comes to that – a year ago I knew I wanted to be confident, a good friend, employee, partner, and unafraid to voice my opinion for fear of other people’s judgment. It only takes making the decision and sticking to it to get to where you want to be – and it sounds like you’re definitely well on your way!
Thank you, love!! I’m interested to see how this all pans out for me.
For what it’s worth, for me it took a super long time to get to a place where I was comfortable with anything about blogging- there’s so much to consider! What do you write about, what don’t you write about? HOW do you talk about things, who do you make friends with- how do you even do that?
It’s all weird, but know that everyone struggles with the same stuff and that if you ever want to chat I’m here & love obscenely long e-mail correspondence =)
What’s important is that you feel it out. Post once a week, and write about things that you’re thinking about. Read blogs that you really enjoy and that get you inspired and fired up.
Who am I? I’m from the Canadian prairies and I hope I live here forever. I’m not at all domestic, but I’m enthusiastic about crafts and stuff, even if I’m not very good at them. I listen to podcasts all the time. I’m addicted to stories, and I try to write about things that I’m going through that might help other people a little bit.
And we already know each other, but it’s very nice to meet you =)
You are the cutest thing, ever. I know that it’s not always easy to put ourselves out there, you know? It’s hard to step outside of our comfort zones, especially when making new friends. But I think you’re a pretty cool chick, and all you’ve got to do to make people love you is be yourself! I get nervous blogging, too. It’s like…what do I want to put out there on the internet as “me”? I think honesty is the best way to go with this. Just be real, tell us about you, tell us what makes you sad, happy, nervous, scared, what makes you HUMAN!! I just adore you and think you’re the sweetest thing ever. Oh and feel free to email me any time, I’d love to know you better!
I am Lisa, I just turned 25 today (EEP!!) and I want to be a runner, too. (Though…I haven’t quite succeeded yet.) I love photography and attempt to be a photographer myself even though I have a long way to go and still don’t get out there and shoot as much as I like. I constantly struggle with feeling like everyone else is better than me at it! lol. I love cooking (this is new for me!) and I looooooooooooooooooove tv on dvd (it’s my guilty pleasure.) Can’t wait to get to know you even more!
Lisa <3